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#26 Off the Chest Chapter 8

Now if you are here after that weird post that was posted on that one thing (Remaining anonymous:101) well IDK yet. But if you're here without a clue... Well you're in the right place... Kinda... Were you looking for a place to read someone whining and complaining. So ..let the third person monologue begin...
No it wasn't him, you know it. I know you know it wasn't him yet still you choose to torment him for something that he never did. What you wanna pick on someone who wouldn't say anything just so that you could relieve all your frustration on? He said he just wanted one thing from you, that you don't ignore him. He didn't ask for time or even love, and I know how much he needs that right now, especially from you. But he didn't ask for any of that. He just asked that you don't ignore him. Yet you say you're not even sure if you can do that. Aren't you the one who told him that you love him? What your love faded? Yeah I understand you went through a tough time for him. But so did he. But you didn't even give him so much of an acknowledgement of his part of it. All you did was whine about how people are talking about it. How its affecting you. How you don't want to hear all those people talking. You say all that and yet you lie to him. You ignore him. You knowingly do things that'll make him miserable. All for what? Measly self satisfaction ? And now what? blame him for something that he didn't even do. Something he tried the best to stop but couldn't do anything about. Something that wasn't even his fault yet you choose to hold it against him. Reminding him of it despite him pleading you not to remind him of it. And yet despite it all he loves you. I know stupid. Considering you're probably just trying to drive him away. But he wouldn't leave so..  You do it over and over until he can no longer take it and snap. Is that the goal ? I mean if that's so you're doing a really good job. I mean its working and shit. There's probably a whole lot more to say but ..  I don't even know if I am even gonna post this. Maybe he will so..  Yeah
#okbye
#toxout

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