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#13 Just another rant

Well....was no.13 ...been a long time coming ....and I still have no idea how to word it properly but here we go.....
So.... I've always thought everyone around me kinda know what they want me to be doing. What they fell like I should do ...in general. No, none of them ever ask me what I'd wanna do... they just know apparently. And me, being the that kind of idiot ends up doing as I'm told because what do I know about what I wanna do? ...you know expect of all those things that I know I wanna do... what do I even know about myself? Just been living with myself for most part of my life...nothing much. I know it sounds like I'm bitching and whining but ... read the title for this blog again.... Now, I'm not saying their reasoning was wrong or anything....they probably thought of something too....probably (yeah....I sugarcoat stuff too.... Beepish-1  Random Citizen-0) but I don't really have to agree with your reasoning ...I just do because....well....brainwashed?....something along those lines probably.

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