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#23 Off the Chest Chapter 5

I don't know how exactly this works but its not suppose to like, be this annoying right? Was not what I signed on to. But it just keeps on coming back over and over and over like its got some kinda vendetta against me. I mean once was enough, you don't need to keep on reminding me of it over and over and over okay. Once was pretty much fine, twice was eye opening and thrice was pushing it but come on. Yeah I know, not exactly stating what the IT over here is, but that's not the point here. But who gives a shit. Just over and over and over again and again, I don't know how many times I have used that phrase by now.....huh. I mean I just wanna forget it all... okay, not all of it. Maybe like the majority of it. I mean I don't know... there were some pretty important stuffs in there too. But I just can't keep on pretending that I'm alright with it all, or all right at all while we're at that....because I'm not. Never gonna openly admit it ...in fact I might even claim that I didn't even type this post but.... well you know... keep that thought process you just had alive. You know the off the chest title kinda seems unnecessary at this point because well all of these post are... entirely off the kokoro. So, there's that I guess.
But, in-spite of all I say and all I do, I mean I've pretty much said this an awfully lot of time but, I'm still  gonna stay the same right? Yup. Pretty much.So, what's the point of all this. Well, I don't know. Don't know if I'll ever find out why I do this. Maybe just too positive about life. Wow, that was an awfully easy explanation.....hmph. Well I don't really know what I was initially gonna type here...I mean this post has been in the draft for well... quite somewhile but....well that's about it I guess.
Peace out.

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