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#14 Looked for the Answer

So, maybe all the weird feeling I've been getting lately might be because I guess I've grown tired of understanding.... like I don't wanna be the understanding guy anymore.... anyone wanna tag in? none? Okay..... But I never guessed I'd get tired of it. I mean it seemed so easy... just listen... understand....process....listen to the next one....understand...process....on and on until you have all the available info and understand the situation. And even update and maintain that understanding with the new stuff... yeah...trust me that sounded a lot simpler while doing it... But it got tiring. So tiring that its not even funny, and trust me something getting tiring is damn funny.. either that or ...yup that's weird. But, don't know why it took this long to figure out that I was just tired of it. And oddly the answer just popped up just randomly... which...well I ain't mad about it but...like...wew. Wow, this is really starting to turn into those types of blogs now but hey, the title said Kingdragon's rant and here we are.... ranting. So, whats next? Seriously I don't know. I mean it took this long just to figure out the problem and moi god will be damned if the answer didn't took longer. But, its not just the understanding part that got me tired, its the fact that it got so frustrating. Having all those answer and might've even shared some of them but the results never changed. Everything just got so frustrating, like the answers were right there, there was the solution but nope, just couldn't run with the ball. Maybe this might be the first time in a long while being this frustrated and most of the causes aren't even supposed to have anything to do with me.
But, knowing all this will I try to change anything about it you ask? Well nope. Yeah I maybe tired and might even take a little break for it all (as if I'll get to do that,lol) but its still gonna stay the same. Well, somebody's gotta do it right? and it might eventually go on to be the end of me but that won't change a thing about it. And yeah, it hurts, it hurts like hell, but unlike a few hours ago I actually know why it hurts so.... there's that. But, then again... what was the point of it all? I guess its a .... off the chest thingy. Wew.... huh... that's about it I guess. Peace out...
-Beep_ish
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